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Let's move on...
As I currently sit here, I am trying to type on my laptop around and over a massively giant belly containing my rabid beast of fury. I am 4 blessed weeks from Lela's exodus from the womb and I have to tell you, it can't come fast enough. For lots of reasons.
I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow and will start having weekly checkups from here on out. My hope is that tomorrow he will check things out and tell me that I'm already dilating and that within 2 weeks, my little bundle of fury.... uh.... JOY will be here, thus eliminating the last 2 weeks of the countdown.
That is my hope.
What is actually going to happen is that I'll go in there tomorrow, he'll check and tell me that I'm sealed up tighter than a vault at the US Treasury and I should expect my little alien to go to college in there.
Sigh.
Can I just tell you that I feel like I've been pregnant forever? And that I've gone from being in denial about the whole thing to feeling like crap and not bonding with the beast to finally accepting and realizing there is AN ACTUAL HUMAN BEING IN THERE (LIKE... A REEEEAAALLL ONE!!!) to back feeling like the whole thing is not real. I feel like I've been pregnant so long that I'm not actually pregnant, but experiencing uncomfortable and painful gas punches and wiggles and that this not sleeping, heartburn ridden, hormonally out of control state of being is the new normal and I need to come to accept that.
Alas, logically, I know that it will end and that life will never be the same again. And I'm SOO excited for that. I'm so excited to finally get to meet our little girl. So excited to finally get to be a mommy. So excited that my Superman gets to be a daddy. So excited that our family gets to get bigger. So excited to finally hold the little monster.... uh... ANGEL in my arms and snuggle her little face. So excited that we are gaining the biggest blessing we can have as a couple.
After all, my Superman and I have created a person together. We took a tiny portion of him and a tiny portion of me, threw them into a pot (aka. my uterus) and let it grow into this new human being who is different than any other person who will walk this earth. Isn't that incredible? She has fingerprints unlike ANYONE ELSE will ever have! That boggles my mind. And my body did that. It grew her from a tiny seed. She will be this perfect combination of my Superman and I and this being who will grow up (hopefully) into a person who can walk, talk, sit, stand, make decisions, etc, etc, etc. THAT'S AMAZING!!
This is the closest thing we can come to feeling what Heavenly Father must feel like. Creation is a miraculous gift, people. For real!
